“When I was around sixteen, I remember saying to myself: ‘every year, I need to change and grow'”.
My birthday is only a few weeks away, so I am naturally in a place of reflection. These quotes were written on my birthday pictures last year and posted on my Instagram captions.
I wrote them as a newly turned ‘fitness girl’, with plans and promise for change. I was secretly dreaming up this blog, asking how I could be a published writer and praying for faith to retain my new lifestyle.
I kept up my birthday goals. But then, I didn’t write: rock climb, snowboard, ski in the French Alps, try a variety of new cuisine, be a wealthy writer and have a walk-in-wardrobe. (A girl doesn’t ask for much!)
Most of our plans surround us doing something. Even when it comes to health. We might write, “eat healthier”, “eat more fruit and veg”; “drink more water”. When do we put: “I want to enjoy taking care of myself”; “I want to be strong enough to accomplish my fitness goals”.
By focusing more emphasis on us, we can work from the root of our own happiness. Because happiness comes from within. A beach holiday and a brand new car, can certainly add enjoyment to our lives. A year on however, I realise that lasting, true happiness, is something we cannot just do. It has to be something we become.
I am in the best place that I have ever been – working on myself. For the first time, I can hold my head up high and say that I feel proud. I am no longer a teenager writing down lists on how to change, or a young woman secretly conjuring up thoughts on how to be different.
I am proud of my body, nutrition, blog, writing, modelling and overall self-gratitude. Typing – I could sound smug. On the contrary, I am still light years away from being able to write a book called “I did everything I set out”.
If you are in summer and feeling holiday blues (post getaway or none), just remember that life already gives us a lot of greatness for free.
And in another year, I hope I can achieve another birthday wish:
“Stay content with me, keep pushing and find time for the things I love.”
What are your goals for yourself this year? Do you believe in reflecting each year?